Mmm.. France.

So..I leave in.. 25 days. And it's funny I was re-reading one of my posts last night when I was on skype with my BEST friend KARINA (; and I was talking about France and how I had 192 days left. It's incredible to me how fast the time has gone waiting for this adventure to arrive. well, its going to come faster than I want it to. 
God has great plans for me but what if He also has plans for me right here? I need to stop looking forward and start looking ici, here, now, maintenant. Because 25 days.. not a whole lot of time. 
The other night I was driving to Shari's and I was listening to Rascal Flatts, These Days, and I started crying, because I was homesick already. I've fallen in love with so many people recently and I don't want to let go. 


Brenna, Sydney, Connor, Dani, Derrick, Josh, Amber, Gareth, Kalli, Sabrina, Tyson, Mick. 


When you all took me in last summer, I found God where you would least expect Him. You all mended my heart, and made me feel loved and home in the strangest of places. I had always wanted to find a group of friends that was always hanging out no matter what.. and that's what I had with you. 
Then we had our ups and downs! but none of it matters now, because I feel alive and at home again with all of you. I loved last Saturday.. because we were all having issues... well except Sab and Tyson(haha!) but it was beautiful how we just loved each other and helped each other. We are all so awkward and we don't make sense but I think that's why it's so perfect. 
I don't want to leave but I love that I will always have a home with you. And I'm not sure what the future holds for this roller coaster group but I can't imagine having a future without you all in my past and present. I wouldn't be who I am without each and every one of you. 


Well, this was supposed to be about France but ya know. Since when do I talk about what I start talking about?
Its funny. when you meet someone who you think is just going to scratch the surface... but they become so much more and go so much deeper than the surface. 


 Even just last month, I couldn't have even imagined I would have these feelings, and I couldn't have guessed who I would miss the most when I get on that plane in El Pasco. 
I'm amazed at how fast this year has gone. 
A year since I met Clay, a year since Malibu, a year since I met this incredible group of people, how could it all be flashing by so quickly? How fast is the next 365 days going to go?
Where will I be? Who will I know? How will I feel?
The only thing I take comfort in: There is a God who loves me and goes with me EVERYWHERE, who has a plan for me, plans to give me a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11)


Lately, I've had K LOVE like... live streaming in my head. It's on in my dreams even.  It's the coolest thing I've ever experienced, cause I'm in constant worship. 


Dear Jesus, 
You're tight, I love you. 
Love, 
Con.
P.S. Thanks.