God is faithful.

OH MAN. (say it like Michael Polvi does)

I love that right now. 

My new favorite saying is "we'll see"... cause we honestly don't know whats coming.. so we'll see (:

I'm sick of people trying to control things. Just LET IT GO. All of it, everything, give it all to God, and just goooo. (:

He's always there, never lets me down, always FAITHFUL.

I want one (:

He's cute.

alright, Valentine's Day..

We all know the feeling.. waiting for him to call. You try so hard to look pretty, and to be funny, and do the things he likes. 


Are you waiting for him to be someone he's not?
Do you wish he would always be there for you and always ask how your day was, and always hold you when you cry, and never ditch you for his friends (or another girl)? Eh. 


Don't you wish he would get jealous when he sees you with another guy? And fight 'till the death to win you over?


Guess who already did that.

JESUS. 


He's crying because you're crying. He wishes so badly that you'd realize He's waiting for you to forget about Nick, Joe, Ryan, Levi, Troy, Aaron, Clay, Alex, Connor, Sean, Chris, Trevor, Tyler and realize that they will NEVER love you like He does..




and on Valentine's Day, when you're wishing you would've gotten roses, or a card, or someone would've kissed you..


LOOK AROUND.


God gave you FIELDS of roses, He gave you the most perfect man to fall in love with. He will never let you down, He will never ignore you when you call him, He will never leave you for someone else, He laid down His life for you, JUST IN CASE you decided you wanted to fall in love with Him too. 


He's so jealous of the boys in your life that get all your attention, He's pulling you in so desperately, just waiting for you to turn and see Him waiting with His arms open so He can just hold you.
RUN TO HIM. HE LOVES YOU. 

well, track.

Reasons to do track?

To get a tan.

To meet people.

YUP.

Well, thats over.

So my morning.. was ridiculous. God does things to make me laugh. 

I tried to pull out into traffic and ... that was a no-go.

Then my gas light came on. But you have to have money for gas. So I went to the bank, bank's closed. So I figured by the time I got over to Richland, that one would be open. I deposited a check and 20 dollars cash.. .and asked for 70 in cash.. I forgot to give them my I.D. so that took a whole 'nother "send the little thing through the tube thing" to get it to me and then I gave them my I.D. and realized... I could've kept the 20 and asked for 50.. they probably think I'm an idiot. 

So I go to the gas station and give him 70 for pump 6.

The pump stops at $50.00

Connie: The pump stopped at 50, but I gave you 70. 

Indian guy I couldn't understand: what? you give me two twenties and two fives. 

Connie: no, I gave you 3 twenties and 2 fives. 

Guy: oh, okay, here you go. (hands me a twenty.)

I walk away thinking " why didn't you just give me 20 dollars more in gas?" but I'm not going to take the time to explain it to him. 

JOSH MAIER COMES HOME THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!

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I'm so excited to have found my long lost husband. 

I got married when I was four to the boy who lived next door to me in Yakima. 

We used to make salad with his mom's plants, she didn't like it very much.

But she still gave me colored marshmallows in my hot chocolate.

Then I moved here. 

Then I found him on facebook last night.

I'm going to Yakima on Saturday.. I'm so freakin excited. haha its been 11 years. 

I just got a facebook event invite for 11/11/11 at 11:11:11.. .well yess.. naturally, i will be there.. ? hahaha. i like it. 

last night, Amber and I got lost. We drove so far out of El Pasco, there was no cell reception. We were at "Selph Landing" it was nice. 

My new found love is Trevor Hall. 

Matthew 16:24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.  What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, and lose their soul?

Its hard to remember that we don't need cell phones, clothes, a house, or a family. God will provide everything we need. If we are made up of the things in the world, we will surely lose our soul. We have to be world-less in order to fully fall in love with Jesus. 

Thought for this week: Be intimate with Jesus. Be open with him, be naked in front of him so that there is nothing between you and him, tell him honestly everything in your life. Give up everything to him.

Love songs

So everyone likes to fall in love, right? Except most of the time it sucks, haha. 

Unless you're Kayla Fillion and Nick Colby, man I love those two. (:

"I can't set my hopes too high because every hello ends with a goodbye" - wise words of good ol' Demi Lovato, She may be in rehab but ya know, she knows what she's talking about. 

It's weird how you can control where your heart is. 

If you're supposed to live in the moment and live each day like it was your last, you would live like crazy and do and say everything you've been holding in. Only problem with that is that most of us don't die before tomorrow and we have to deal with what we did the day before. So do you worry about the future or do whatever you want right now like Maggie Jones? props to that girl. 

If you give your heart to God, he'll never break it, and you can hear love songs all day long if you listen to K-Love, 93.3 (:

What you don't understand is He'll catch a grenade for ya, throw Himself on a cross for ya, jump in front of a train for ya. He'll go through all the pain, take a nail straight through the hand, He already DID die for you.

John 3:16 "God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life"

Graduation thoughts (:

alright....

so I was watching Laguna Beach and they graduate and it got me super excited for graduation. And I really love their colors, and they got to wear leis cause they live by the beach and just.. ah!

I'm so ready to graduate. 

Also.. I decided today that the first bonfire I have after graduation, I'm going to have paper and pens so that people can write something that they want to leave behind when they move on, something they want to leave in high school, or something they want to forget and burn it. 

I can't wait to leave some things behind and follow my dreams. 

Isaiah 41:10 

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you."

It's times like these we learn to live again.

I have to remember that my life is going to be so much bigger than this. 

We all need to remember that the drama, the lies, the stolen boyfriends (girl, please), the homework (; none of it is going to matter. 

We graduate in 145 days. 

I'm going to France in 192 Days. 

So none of this, right now, in the Tri-Cities.. none of it is going to matter. 

This is what's going to matter:

I found a quote book that I made in Mrs. Crass' class sophomore year.. I need to remember to listen to my own advice. 

"Only spend time with people who have a positive influence on you"

"Never waste time feeling sorry for yourself"

and

"All you need is LOVE"

and I need to remember Amber Buchanan's advice, 

"Just let go of control"

that's a big one for me... 

I'm so thankful for Dani, Brenna, Kalli, & Laguna Beach, they're good at pep talks (:

OH, and Value Village.

John 5:14 "This is the boldness which we have toward him, that, if we ask anything according to his will, he listens to us"

Guess what.

I am who I am.
I'm not going down without a fight. I won't compromise who I am. I love who I am. God made me this way. God made me stubborn enough to NEVER give in to smoking and drinking. 
Obviously it sucks when you don't want you be around your own friends anymore, but I'm not going to give in. 


I bought my abovetheinfluence sweatshirt yesterday and I will wear it with pride. Sorry that I actually want to remember my nights (;


It will be a struggle and probably one of the hardest things I've ever gone through in my high school years, but its just the way it is. 
I will not Smoke
I will not Drink
I will not participate in conversations when people are talking about how fun it was that they don't remember anything.
Sorry, but you're not cool.
When you're 30, fat, and failing, you'll wish you weren't a pot head.